Did you miss me? I know it’s been a hot minute but life sometimes gets in the way. This could be a long one so you may want to grab a drink and a snack and hold on for one hell of a ride.
Where to begin? Truthfully trying to remember where I left off would be the better question. I know it’s been years sue me, you won’t get much.
Ok went back and looked to see where I’d left off. Well that was about 12 years ago in 2013. We are now obviously in 2025. So updates in the wonderful world of me.
2014 unfortunately I sadly said good bye to one of the best friend’s I had, my Jack O Lantern. Sadly he contracted Equine Lymphagitis like my friend’s horse before him. So I let him heal from it the first time and everything was going good until I had a barn owner who decided to disregard the directions from my vet saying not to put him out when it was muddy and that Christmas it was muddy for December in Cananda. No snow, wet, rainy and chilly. So tons of mud. So was getting him healed up from that and I get a text message from her on December 23 telling me that his leg was swollen again. Now by this point the vet and I had already talked and we decided that people usually are able to fix it the first time, and he was healing, but it would be a recurring thing and they then make a choice when they contract it a second time. So unfortunately I made the hard choice of saying good bye to my best friend. I couldn't justify taking money from the family to pay for him and his quality of life was no longer what it had once been. So on December 23 2014 I kissed his nose for the last time.
February 2015 I started free leasing another horse, Leo decided after two weeks of me suffering through my bout of depression I was never allowed to be without a horse again. So Rayne came into my life in 2015. We were a team and quite a good one. In our first full season out we took 3rd overall in one division and 4th overall in another. She was fantastic even if at times she was crazy, but sadly I ended up having a nasty fall that resulted in me being laid up on a heating pad for two weeks and lost all my confidence. So by this point I owned her, I made the hard choice that I needed to sell her. Why? Cause she was to good and I was now terrified. I wasn't getting any younger by this point so after two and a half years together I put her up for sale and said goodbye to my second horse.
When I sold Rayne it was because I had made the choice I wasn't getting passed the wall that was stopping me from doing what she needed to do. So I was on the hunt for another. And I found him. Along came Solomon. Or as Leo named him for shows "Quiet Confidence". and boy was he. He gave me back ALL that I had lost with Rayne and then some. Being in my late 30's by this point in my life with Rayne I knew I couldn't afford to have nasty falls and that's why I stopped being able to ride the way Rayne needed. The first time I tried Solo I did something I told my coach and friend at the time I wouldn't do. So that day the descision was made to sell Rayne and buy Solo. So he came home and we spent another two and a half years together. He taught me so much and even got my 60 year old mother riding in weekly lessons til she hurt herself at work then that kind of ended for her but she still came to every lesson and every show.
I kept Solo til my I blew the engine in my truck and I needed to try and replace the engine. Well working in a factory you don't make a shit ton of money no matter what people think. So we put a refurbished engine in, it was cheaper. Little did we know there was a crack in the engine block so the truck was dead. Well we needed two vehicles cause I needed to get to and from work and Leo wouldn't have driven me as early as I liked to get to work, so I went and managed to find a car that I could afford payments on. But alas, affording the payments on the car meant I didn't have the money for Solo so I was losing yet another horse. Luckily one of my best friends bought him from me and told me I could see him whenever I wanted. I was thankful for that and knew he'd be well taken care of.
Now that's the updates on the horses. How I miss all three. 2019 brought changes to my family life. Leo and I had been together for 18 years by this point. I had started talking to a guy in another country, and we hit it off. Yes I was involved in an adult type game online but that's another story for another day if you're lucky. I decided to go and see him and what had now become one of my best friend's, like a sister, down in Wisconsin and did it over my 40th birthday. First big trip I took anywhere on a plane myself. It was a great two weeks. Two other friends came down and we just partied for my birthday.
I also did a lot of soul searching those two weeks and decided that Leo and I had drifted apart. Hell by this point we weren't even sharing the same bed. Yeah it sucked but what do you do when things have run their course? Leo and I are still friend's to this day, hell we have a child together. But I started dating the Winconsin guy and we were making plans that eventually I would move down there. So I was going down quite often after working 8 hours at work then drive another 8 to get to his place and then come home after a weekend. Usually it was long weekends but still it worked for awhile.
He came up here a couple times. Once I had tickets to see Luke Bryan from the floor in Detroit and my best friend who was supposed to come wasn't able to make it so boyfriend of the year, told me I wasn't going to Detroit by myself, little does he know I would have been going, I mean it was floor seats for Luke fricking Bryan for christ sake! So he and I stayed in Leo's house, why you may ask, well cause Leo and I built a wall to separate off the living room into a little bachelor type apartment for me. He and Alex never used the living room as a living room and there was the extra bathroom with a shower downstairs. It worked out for us while I was trying to get on my feet. So the four of us were one happy family for a few months that he was up from Wisconsin. Concert had been in October and I didn't have any time to take him home til December at Christmas.
During his time up here I was a member of a Billiard team and he inadvertently joined while he was here. It was great, gave us something to do. Little did either of us know but in October sometime I ended up pregnant. Course I didn't find out til one night in December we were getting ready to go on a date and I said something about clothing that had fit me two months ago. He jokingly said something about me being pregnant and I brushed it off til we got a test and surprise! Unfortunately tragedy struck and I miscarried. Wooo 4th one. So that was a crappy Christmas. Having to have surgery and then drive 8 hours to Winsconsin to take him home. Well he had to come back in March for play offs for Billiards so I went back down and got him. No he didn't drive. But I didn't mind. I was just happy to see him.
So March of 2020. The year the world shut down. I'm sure if any of you readers are around my age or a few years younger or older you all know about the lovely COVID-19. He was here, we played one week of play offs and everything shut down. Including the boarder. Now if you remember he didn't drive, he didn't have a passport that would allow him to travel by plane, apparently that's a thing in the states. Who knew? The only thing we have in Canada is one and that's what you need for all travel by Plane, car, boat, bus, truck, whatever. So he was essentially stuck here. We kept hoping that the boarder would open at some point, but as the months went on it didn't look like it was happening. So he was stuck here for 6 months. In those 6 months we couldn't go anywhere and the most separation we got was when I went back to work after being laid off for three months. After 6 months things started opening back up and a plan was made to get him home. So off he went in August of 2020. He'd been home for a week and I finally asked him, cause he'd been distant with me after getting home, if we were good and that's when he told me he loved me but not as a girlfriend anymore.
To say I was shocked would be an understatement. I hit rock bottom drank farrrrrr more than I should and didn't want to get out of bed. Was off work for a month, even with sick leave not paying me any money. I was broke. Needless to say I wasn’t in a good place. I basically stopped everything I loved including playing World of Warcraft, only my most fave computer game ever.
So November of 2020 was bad. Got through Christmas somehow. Made it through January and in February started talking to a guy named Dave. We started talking and then met up and started dating. I would drive up to his parents place where he was living, ever weekend. Met his two youngest kids. Ok they were 7 and 12 at the time. We did a lot of things together through the summer as things were opening back up after being closed cause of COVID. Mom and I moved into an apartment together after I moved out of Leo’s place and Dave helped me move my stuff in, mom hired movers. That was in June. October Dave kind of moved down with mom and I so he could try and find work in the city where there is transit since he doesnt’ have his licence. That was the change. It was getting to the holiday season and we didn’t really have money for gifts so he borrowed money from his mom to have presents for the 4 kids at the time. Mom got mad and shit hit the fan so he decided he was gonna move home to his parents and I looked for a new job closer to him and then at Christmas moved in with him and his parents and started a new job January 11 2022.
Now three years later we have a townhouse of our own have three of his 4 kids living with us and see Alex once in awhile when he comes up for weekends. Crazy how things work out. I mean we have had our share of crap happening too. The whole reason we needed to get a place of our own cause his dad was diagnosed with cancer and his parents were selling the house so we needed to move. Sadly his dad lost his battle in December of 2023 so that sucks. Then 2 months later grandma went in for surgery and got an infection and passed away in February of 2024. So here’s hoping 2025 is a little better.
Congratulations if you’ve made it through my update on my life from what 2013 or something? Oh yeah something else I forgot. I’ve been working on starting my own sublimated tumbler, coaster, baby items business. Make some extra money to help with bills and stuff.
Think I’m leaving this here for now. Hopefully I’ll keep up with all this time. LOL.
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